live to ride – part two
Here is another snippet from Paul Brown’s recent interview. He’s got a lot of really good stuff to say.
“About two thirds the way through my chemo treatment, I really started to feel the effects of the treatment.. what makes cancer patients so ill and so fucked up is very rarely cancer itself. The way chemo works is, it is a poison. It is in fact a cocktail of poisons. That act by killing cells that grow quickly in your body. Of course that includes cancerous cells but that also includes a lot of cells that your body uses to function every day. Your hair falls out, that’s the most common. Your fingernails can fall out or become soft and brittle or flake. The mucus membrane in my esophagus… it deteriorated and collapsed. So I couldn’t eat or drink. Anything at all. Even cold water burned my insides terribly. That was probably the single most unbearable point for me. Being down on my knees on the floor… being in agony just trying to to acquire sustenance… at that point I had to ask myself a question. Is this worth it?”